She’s the proud mother four-year-old son Angelo James.
But in her cover interview for the December issue of Vanity Fair, Adele has revealed her battle with postnatal depression after her son’s birth, saying that it was so bad, she may not have any more children.
“I’m too scared,” she told the mag. “I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me,” the 28-year-old confessed to the publication.
Adele to play in New Zealand in 2017.
At first, the singer says she didn’t want to talk to anyone about her struggles but she eventually found solace in friends going through the same problem.
“I didn’t talk to anyone about it. I was very reluctant… My boyfriend said I should talk to other women who were pregnant, and I said, ‘F— that, I ain’t hanging around with a f—ing bunch of mothers.'”
“Then, without realising it, I was gravitating towards pregnant women and other women with children, because I found they’re a bit more patient.”
“One day I said to a friend, ‘I f—ing hate this,’ and she just burst into tears and said, ‘I f—ing hate this, too.’ And it was done. It lifted,” the London born Brit reflected.
Adele also revealed how the depression manifested itself.
“My knowledge of postpartum – or post-natal, as we call it in England – is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job.”
“But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life. It can come in many different forms,” she said.
With the support of her partner of five years, Simon Konecki, the Hello hitmaker decided to implement an afternoon a week where she had her own downtime without her son.
“Four of my friends felt the same way I did, and everyone was too embarrassed to talk about it; they thought everyone would think they were a bad mum, and it’s not the case. It makes you a better mum if you give yourself a better time.”
The star, who is about to wrap her world tour, also credited the support of Simon, 42, for getting her through everything.
“He’s not threatened by any stage of my life that I’m going through, and that’s an amazing thing. It’s the most serious relationship I’ve ever been in,” she explained.