Jennifer Hudson has spoken publicly for the first time since the brutal murders of her mother, brother and seven-year-old nephew last october. In a new interview, the ‘American Idol’ reject turned oscar-winner describes herself as a “mama’s baby”, adding, “I’d go to sleep in her bed until I was 15 years old.” Jen continues, “The thing that keeps me going is knowing God is in control. If he placed me here, then I must be prepared.” Her fiancé, reality TV star David otunga, received Jen’s mother’s blessing before he proposed and says he’ll always be there for Jen: “She doesn’t have to worry about losing me. I’m always going to be right here.”