Her recovery hasn’t been as simple as it might sound. Behind the public image of joyful new beginnings is a woman who has kept her feelings locked up tight. Scared, facing down intense loneliness, her confidence in herself and others shattered, Guy says it has taken years to deal to her grief – to even talk about it with any sense of perspective.
Raised in the small North Island town of Feilding, Guy’s world before the tragedy was very small. She had lived either on the family farm, or on one “down the road”, her entire life.
It was more than a year before Macdonald’s trial for murder began; 14 months in which Guy’s world narrowed to one of: get the kids up, feed them, bathe them, put them to bed. Repeat. She says the loneliness was all enveloping.
Only Guy’s immediate family knew what she was going through. Her mother Jo, dad Bryan, sister Nikki and brother Callum made a decision to stay close and support each other.
All the while Guy visited Macdonald in prison, steadfastly refusing to listen to everyone else’s opinion on him until she made up her own mind.
Until the trial was over, the family had not been allowed to speak to the media. Now everyone wanted their story.
Other media opportunities followed, including filming segments for current affairs show 3rd Degree. At the same time, she was taking tentative steps into a new relationship, something she “never saw coming”.
On the wall behind Guy is a frame containing 24 photos of her life now, candid snaps of holidays and beach life, family and friends. She has found a level of happiness with Jameson that she never felt in her first marriage. She recently signed with an agency to do voiceover work and she likes being around for her kids, able to help out at school. But for all her new reality, the repercussions of her brother’s death are ongoing.
Instead of keeping her feelings to herself, she told Jameson.
The children still chat to Macdonald on the phone. Sometimes they feel like it, sometimes they don’t.