365 days without your warm and generous heart.
Without that cheeky grin of yours,
That incredible warm voice, the best voice I have ever come across in my entire life,
A full year without that winning smile, your unconditional love, your bloody swearing, your captivating storytelling, I could listen to your stories all day and all night long,
Your brightness, you have been so incredibly smart without even knowing it,
Your vast overall knowledge and your warm big hugs, the best hugs in the whole wide world.
Now our little son has moved into your big steps and has become the best hugger.
And that's how much I miss you.. endlessly
There has been dark
There has been heavy
And no one has been aware of how dark the places have been and where they have taken you at times…
And I am so, so sorry, that none of us have been able to bring you the light and brighten up your darkest days…
And I am still hoping for you to walk through that door, hoping it was all just a terrible, terrible dream and none of this has ever happened
You have supported me and stood by me, like you always have.
You were kicking my bum whenever I thought, I can't go any further and telling me to be strong, to move on and to live my life to the fullest.
For our little boy
And it never will…