Nicole Kidman has revealed her worries about being an older mum, and living with the fear that she might not see her children thrive.
In a tell-all interview with CBS News, the Australian admitted that having two kids under the age of 10 was something of a concern as she approaches the big 5-0.
The 49-year-old actress has two young daughters with her second husband, Keith Urban, as well as two older children with ex Tom Cruise.
“I would just like to – and it makes me sad – I would just like to be here long enough to have my children grow up and for me to see them thriving. Right? So that’s all I ask. And that my husband and I are with each other. Simple! Simple requests,” she told reporter Tracy Smith.
Despite covering everything from her father’s death, to the breakdown of her marriage to Cruise, it was talking about her children that brought Nicole to tears.
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Nicole Kidman has two young children with Keith Urban
No stranger to loss, Nicole had to say goodbye to her beloved father in 2014, when he died suddenly of a heart attack.
Asked how she carried on after, Nicole credited her husband, Keith Urban, with picking her up.
“Because I had a husband who came right back. I called him screaming and crying and he was about to go on stage and he walked off stage…he flew six hours to me.”
The Lion star also opened up about her divorce from Cruise in 2001, and how she channelled her rage into her role in The Hours.
Playing depressed author Virginia Woolf, Kidman said helped her realise that she could keep going.
“It kind of saved my life…it let me feel like it’s OK, I can keep going.”